A potter’s field is a burial place for unknown or indigent people/prisoners. The biblical reference in Aramaic means ‘field of blood’ “stated to have been purchased, with the coins that had been paid to Judas Iscariot for his identification of Jesus, after Judas’ suicide, by the high priests of Jerusalem. The priests are stated to have acquired it for the burial of strangers, criminals, and the poor, the coins paid to Judas being considered blood money.” (Wikipedia).
Today the term is still used for burial grounds for the unknown. I have always felt unknown, like an outsider, too strange to be a part of the group, liked but not loved/just outside the circle of acceptance. I have been this way in every area of my life from my youth and it manifested in depression and suicidal thoughts. I was hospitalized for wanting to kill myself as a freshman in high school and the depression even though well managed until my marriage took on a whole new level in my abuse with my ex and after.
I have accepted who I am now, but I know I’m still an outsider in this industry as a woman in EDM and that I definitely don’t “look” like a “pop star” either, so I decided to use that feeling to make a brand and write lyrics to draw in others who feel the same way. That old saying “if you can’t beat it, join it” is the concept I had while picking the name. If someone relates to my sound/lyrics it’s because they resonate with something about me, what I stand for, lyrics, or just an overwhelming feeling of being an outsider.
In MY Pottersfield, a person has a choice to die in that pain or to live, to continue to suffer, or to accept yourself and dance in the field. I want to create a resource for those struggling with depression, drugs, or alcohol so that they can find resources on my website to get help and not be buried in Pottersfield but to find others in a community who identify with them and choose to fight to live.